Monday, March 13, 2006

A Time For Everything

To everything there is a season,
a time for every purpose under the sun.
A time to be born and a time to die;
a time to plant and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
a time to kill and a time to heal ...
a time to weep and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn and a time to dance ...
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing;a time to lose and a time to seek;
a time to rend and a time to sew;
a time to keep silent and a time to speak;
a time to love and a time to hate;a time for war and a time for peace.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

This verse from the Bible has somehow been playing in my head for the last week or so, starting from the time I stepped home after work and was told that my grandfather had vomitted blood. Automatically, due to his many previous health problems, I assumed the worst:
*Internal bleeding?*
*Liver collapsed?*
*His prostate cancer reaching it's critical state?*
*Must be in crazy pain*

There wasn't much information in hand that day. All I knew was that he was hospitalized, back in Kuantan, and was being treated. No one could provide answers as to what was the cause of the vomitting, how serious it was, or how much pain ah kong was in. It was frustrating because everyone around me was so cool, and here I was, thinking *Heloooooooo, he just vomitted blood. Should there not be more urgency?*

The next day, the family travelled back to Kuantan to see him. Was glad to see him with a healthy pink tint on his face. He seemed well, in no pain. It was such a relief to find out that the vomitting was due to very bad stomach ulcer, and not some collapse of internal body functions/organs. The urologist did further tests on him to find out more about his prostate cancer. Apparently, there should have been further treatment for his prostate cancer, which was not performed by the previous doctor. **Ughh, crap doctor**

With this grandfather of mine, I have not been very close, due to the fact that I struggle to speak Hakka or Cantonese, while he cannot speak or understand much English. In the recent years, he has been sick so much, and I just want to comfort him and talk to him more, but my words fail me. There are so many things which I want to say to him which I do not know how to express. These are the times when I so so wish that I had a much more decent command of Hakka. (Point to myself: Must make sure my children pick up at least their grandparent's dialect)

I guess, like Ecclesiates says, there is a time for everything. For me, the last two years have been a time of loved ones growing old with health complications. First my grandpa's prostate cancer, then my grandma's heart attack, and now this spewing blood incident. They have been wake-up calls for me, a realization that I'm not going to have them around forever, which means that I should be spending more time with them. Now wouldn't it be great if I could somehow reverse this ageing process..


At 3/16/2006 12:13 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i can teach u hakka and pray in hakka..i prayed in hakka with my grandma, i think she felt more assured and coz she understand better.

it takes effort to observe tht we need to spend time wit them. despite our busy lives, i hope u'll have more fruitful time with ur grandparents.

At 3/20/2006 8:47 PM, Blogger senorita said...

yups... may God's peace be with you...

i can teach you a fe comforting words in Hakka too..

At 3/29/2006 1:35 PM, Blogger ahem_ahem said...

Poh Lynn, Alice,
Thanks for your offer. Really appreciate it, just that it's a lil' too late..


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