I Sat On A Chair And Thought About Life

Farewell

Something I wrote last week, back in Kuantan:

20-03-06
Ah Kong has passed away. Suddenly, just like that, with no warning, no time to say a proper goodbye.

He was sick the weekend before, admitted to hospital. Discovered that his prostate cancer has evolved to lung cancer. I could not make it for that trip back to Kuantan. My aunt tells me she had asked him to cry out to Jesus when he was afraid and needed help. Ah Kong nodded, a big difference from previous times when he just listened politely. I hope in my heart, that God had truly been his help in those times. Otherwise, I think the pain and loneliness would have been very unbearable.

I thought I had more time. So did the whole family, I guess. In a way I am glad he does not have to suffer any more pain. In fact, looking back, it is some sort of a miracle that he never suffered much pain during the 4 years of his cancer. It was just certains periods when the pain would come and go.

One thing I wish though, that he had been able to receive more family care, especially when he was sick. I had returned back to Kuantan to see Mimi, Ah Kong's maid bawling her eyes out. For her I am very thankful, because she truly cared for Ah Kong, accompanying him day and night, at home and in hospital. I do not know how the family would have done without her.

I want to thank everyone for your prayer and support during that time. Thank you for your listening ear, and words of comfort. I know some of you were pretty much at a lost for words when I was just crying over the phone, but you did help. A lot.

Just over a recent funeral, I had heard something along these lines: "When God allows death, it is always a double edge sword. It is never just death alone, because at the same time, God is working His purpose". In this case, my glimmer of hope is this, that with Ah Kong passing, there had come a time when he had encountered God as his savior.

posted by ahem_ahem @ 3/29/2006 01:30:00 PM